 | Current mood:  discontent I received a call today which reminded me,back in June when my husband and I were almost killed in an accident by a drunk driver.We feel upon some hard times.When I say hard times I guess I might as well be saying I still am living hard times or through them ,but I mean really hard times without a car ,injured ,ya know scared, traumatized and at that point by the time I got to thinking about my utilities and stopped licking my wounds,and worrying about my car and what we were gonna do.Oh yeah utilities,bills ,responsibilities oh shit!So then ya know I turned to the utilities company's trying to make payment arrangements and negotiate with people only to find myself at the point where no one could help us .Finally when speaking to a rep at one of the utility company's I get turned onto this # 211 help line number.This is during a time that I'm waiting on a job,I finally get the job,then its like ok we got this much money for gas to make it through till my husbands payday I'll have to wait 3 weeks for my first paycheck and we dont have any food in the house.I have this 211# and I'm like what's this place gonna do for me ,we dont use the system we both work ,no one has helped us before why this be different now,but they did help we were able to get food and assistance with one of our utility bills.Today I get a call from this rep wanting to do a survey about my experience in 2008 with using the 211#,and at the end she asked if I would mind them qouting me.I at first was like NO! in my head then I thought hey why not they did help us it is a great service they even followed up on us about a week later after we called.I have infact reffered a few people at work to this # when I was told about a hard time they were going through and thought it would be benificial.Now I know some of my friends may read this and get upset at us for not having asked them for help when it was needed,we love you guys and you were there for us so please dont be upset with us.Which brings me to why I decided to blog today,I m stressed and I may not have a job after today or by sunday ,so when I got this call it reminded me of the time I was in need and without work now with my job dangling by a thread it just weirded me out.I work in a call center helping people troubleshoot with their sat tv,its not a glamorous job by any means,but its a job.My time on the phone is clocked each time by how long I help a customer , when the call is done how long I take to make a note on the account ,my attendance and adhearing to my schedule are a majority to what makes my over all handle time which is a # you have to be at goal with or you loose your job after a small period of time.I have a great boss an awesome schedule, but im still struggling to shed about 30 sec give or take off my handle time, my boss is in school and has been out the past few days which is a savings grace for me because until we have our weekily coaching on how im doing I still have a job.I started out with 30 something people in my class one of the bigger class' they had at the timeI had a great instructor,by the time we went to the floor during this limbo time they call transition the class was about half the original size for many different reasons,once we hit the floor we were put into different pods on sep teams within those pods and by that time two people from class were still there with me.The last time I checked 4 people including myself still work there that I went thru the begning with,only one of them I care for that monica .My current team is made up of different people some new some old ,some of which I have become very close to and hate the idea of not getting to see on a regular basis ,sounds stupid hunh,?Im 32 yrs old and I feel like Im in high school and were are possibly moving.Not only do I need my job I want my job which fucking sucks cause that;s not enough being a good empolyee isnt enough 30 sec will make or break me.My husband is worried but supports me ,always has,thank you for that honey,if Im fired there two other place's Ill imediatly go to but that not the point .The 211 made me realize I may have climed up on the ladder, but I may have to climb back down again soon. |
| Current mood:  accomplished I wasn't sure how to put this down in words ,but I was in a pickle today.My girl Tee's hubby is turning one year older tomorrow.I wanted to get him something ,and I couldn't think of what to get him.So the other day while at Barnes & Noble my husband and I looked but just didn't find anything we thought he would like.Sometimes thats a bitch you know birthdays and all its so personal,lol,but anyway.So latter that eve I went to pay a bill ,and thought hey uh ,I should check out that one adult store by my house and see if there's anything in there for him.OMG! maybe if he was GAY! I pulled up like I don't know around 9 pm ish and no one was there,but a lil Hispanic woman who worked there.I had never been in this store which was naughty, but not nice!lol seriously I was like bombarded with latex penis' , andsomething that looked like a tree stump that I guess they will put somewhere obviously, I had a vision of that scene from that movie , Requiem for a Dream ,where that old dude says to the two girls who were having sex for crack or meth and they are completley exhasted and he says "ass to ass "with the giant two ended dildo ehhw lord ,yes girl they had a few of those ,oh my God !I had no fucking clue,it was a hard core shop.I was making my way out of the shop,but first browsing the oils and what not and this dude comes in and I like fucking froze up like oh shit some one might see me here that I know,But he seemed to be suspicious of me too,so kool then fuck off! anyway he leaves and I say to the lil chica there I just don't think theres anything here I could by in good conscience for my friends husbands birthday,and she laughed and nodded her head and I left.Hell I aint saying there were items there I wouldn't get for a girlfriend but her husband ,ewwh I dont think so. Today I got to thinking about the gift and I took a more simple approach, a sweet but good card,and some good ol texas beer... |
| Current mood: sore So a total Summer's eve ,uhhm ....cleaning is in order for my house.I got lot's of books and other miscellaneous shit that needs gone through & donated or maybe recycled? Anyway I have sometime off work at the moment and its not related to the recent auto accident my husband and I were in.While I had this time off you know,I had plans... so much for best laid plans.... I will do what I can between doc apts and what not.. Today I had an MRI done,have you ever gone in and had one yourself? Its not really a big deal if you just wear earrings or maybe you have never had any thing pierced,so its no big deal. Today was a tough day for me,I myself have never had an MRI.So I wasn't aware ALL jewelry must come out! lol You know since I had my nipples pierced I have never had the jewelry out,and today when faced with this situation I thought oh shit! But I gave it a good try I just couldn't do it they wouldn't come loose.Then I looked up at my face in the mirror and saw my Monroe piercing,then to my tragus piercing that I have had since I was 21 so ten years and it had never been out either.I was just upset my breast all out of my bra,my face red and then hot tears swirled down my cheeks .I had my mini moment then packed the girls away,dried my eyes and face and said,I cant do this on my own. I would have to go to the piercing bar.When I told the guy who was going to do the test that I couldn't do it because well you know,he was like oh ,ok , well could you go and have them taken out then come back latter ?.I said yeah. So I took hubby to work.Then I went to a job interview because it was set up the day before and the piercing bar didn't open up till noon.My interview at a new yarn specialty shop went well,but I am not sure they will call back. After that ,it was off to 23rd st Piercing Bar.They were great! Becky helped me she was so gentle,so sweet,and she didn't charge me either.The taking out was easy.It was 2 hours give or take latter that I was back to have the jewelry put back in. OUCH! Becky was ever gentle,but my body had already started to heal,even she was shocked how fast my piercing had tried to start healing,so anyway back to sea salt & water soaks again.My Monroe piercing is swollen and tender.Just let your mind do the wondering as to how my nipples are doing.Like I said so much for best laid plans.. |
| Current mood:  blessed ? A little while back I suggested getting a number 3 tattooed on myself and my girls becks and tracy. To represent us and the bond we share as sisters,you know if we really were sisters.Tracy totally forgot about it ,lol cause tequila is a mind eraser ya know. But she took the suggestion and prettied it up with the idea of the trinity knot all of us are Irish some of us catholic ,but not practicing.whatever.So tracy set’s up an appointment with Josh Poindexter at Tornado Tattoo in Oklahoma City.We basically tell becks we are going out for some drinks and being this isn’t an out of the norm request she’s down for it right.So on are way there we get lost cause I hadn’t ever been there before ,although tracy had it was dark and not so familiar an area for some girls from the south side..We find it with our personal navigation guide shane, tracy’s husband,lol. Now I have to give a lil background here or what I’m about to say wont make any sense.In august of 07 I turned 31 and celebrated it by getting a few pierceing’s infact someone else was supposed to get her uh hmmm nipples pierecd too!,but she who will not be named ok tracy you know its you,lol anyway. Becks were already done,though she had a larger bar put in I think or just reopened,anyway point is becks has a huge fear of needles ,swore off tats piercing is one thing but a bunch of needles is another.Not to mention that Tracy given becky some shit over not having a tat or getting one ,so beck gave tracy some shit over the nipple piercings lmao ,we just couldnt twist tracys wrist cause she was like after you screamed! like a dieing animal that sealed the deal for me no nipple peircing!.. Ya know,I had a come to jesus meeting with myself and tracys nipples and I m willing to let em alone.But fyi tracy you are missing out honey.:-) So we are there at the parlor and becks like what are we doing here ?why are we at a tattoo parlor.Me and tracy are like because we have an appointment.You should’ve seen the look on beck’s face she must’ve thought we were doing it then.However tracy and I were worried if we asked her about the tat she’d say no ,so a lil trickery on part was played ,but all for a good cause..Becks really surprised me ya know she was way cool about it,she was like alright, &when? she and I got to meet Josh and Rich to two artist of Tornado Tattoo who I really like.Josh loves to do flowers and I seen some orchids he had done which I LOVE,beautiful work.. So we set up our appointment ,and leave to have a few or more drinks at The Blue Note a good time was had. I had a hangover from hell the next day..They have guiness on tap and harp beer I had 4 pints of guiness and two black and tans,yum a dum dum,but so bad a headache the morning after. March 29 Tracys birthday I get picked up by tracy ,becks and jessie, tracy’s lil cuz.We head over to the north side we grab something to eat on the fly.Then we head over.Fast forward thru all the legal mumbo jumbo, we are ready to get inked beck wants to go first,being I’m a lil nervous its also my first Im like ok!!Becks was a real trooper no tears a couple of threats or accusations about tracy lying about the pain,lol and how she better get her nipples pierced now!..but then It was my turn,I wonder if tracy made us go fist to insure we do it,lol..just kiddin.. It did hurt,but not like I thought it would and not as bad as my nipples,Jesus! was the first thing I could say when he did my first line,but with each line I just bitched my way thru it ya know,never saying shit about the guy causing my pain just that it was annoying like a bee stinging you over ,and over..what can I say it was all worth it,no regrets I love you guys very much...always will...  |
